Lack Magic
These blogs just burst out of me, seemingly at the 25th of the month. I’m sure there’s something to that…
I’m sitting here at a coffee shop next to one of the first shops I started selling happy thoughts; I wrote one of my first blogs here last year as I was about to release my website. I’m working on my kickstarter and getting ready to release it next week.
Surrounded by happy thoughts.
I’m sitting here like a semi-normal person seemingly just getting coffee and doing some work and I just keep crying. Like I’ll be just pluggin away and then all of a sudden my face is in my hands and there are tears. So the semi-normal thing is out the window now, but I am SO overcome with gratitude for where I’m at.
Guys, happy thoughts are gonna make it. Where? I don’t know, but they are ON THEIR WAY.
If you looked at my bank account, I would seem entirely reckless. Like, mom and dad, maybe don’t read this part… I have never risked SO much in my life, but I’m crying because I KNOW I’m held. Like I know abundance is out there and my path to the next right thing keeps appearing in front of my feet like magic. I have never been in such lack in my life, I feel like I’m splurging when I buy a very regular coffee and nutella sandwiches are now absolutely appropriate for all meals; I have gotten REAL creative with how to live on the cheap and I’m seeing so clearly how depletion paves space for you to ACT. With lack comes more space than ya ever wanted to have, but in that space, there’s access to magic.
I feel so grateful that I am in a position to be able to waylay the panic of said space and find the magic. Lack can very easily and equally mean survival and survival almost certainly must bring panic. I am fortunate that if things got real real bad, I can fall back on a career that is out of alignment for me, but has the dollar signs this society requires. In these moments, I think that possibility is what allows me to step back and see what’s happening in a less panicked and more objective creative way. I have a real stubborn nature when it comes to thinking I can do something, so it tracks that I plan to tear it up with happy thoughts right past society’s dollar signs.
The new sample of the happy thoughts revamp arrived last week and I have been clamoring ever since to get all the things together to shout about it from the rooftops! Those of you who have known me for longer than this business, know that I do not shout about my life from the rooftops. I don’t know who this girl is, but she’s gotten way louder… I’d apologize, but she also doesn’t say sorry for existing anymore either.
A magic baby snail meets baby snail moment on the REVAMP!
I just wanted to share what this moment right before the next step feels like. It feels empty and full at the same time. I never ever want to forget this feeling of being so SO small and knowing that everything I need is already within me, which includes the ability to ask for help to access the things I don’t know.
THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU to everyone who has let me yammer on (I can YAMMER), has offered help, has helped teach me to accept help, has asked questions or just met this journey with curiosity, listened or followed along so far! You all matter so much, like really really, give yourself a hug please!