Here we go!
And we’re off!
A month ago, everything that is happening right now was simply an idea; a hope, perhaps a slightly panicked need.
Working on the happy thought project on a redirect
A month ago I was trying to get my sewing machine fixed, I hadn’t even considered using the library yet, I was searching for happy thoughts (for myself and y’all) and learning and relearning how to make this new idea work.
I hit a lull and was pretty literally forced to pause and percolate.
Today I am in a still chaotic, but very different spot. I am now pretty firm on the belief that dreaming is ESSENTIAL for the completion of ideas. If there is no time given to dreaming up what you truly want, like just sitting in la-la-land thinking up possibilities, how will you know where ‘there’ is that you want to go? It’s human nature to seek security; if you have not dreamed about where you’d like to go, I truly believe you will most assuredly go someplace less strugglesome than the less than smooth dream journey.
Seemingly in contrast with the above paragraph, the number of times I have ended up not ‘there’ cannot be overestimated. Those detours are alluring! I both believe dreaming is a necessity and I believe that you don’t know where you want to go until you’ve gone where you don’t want to go. There’s just no way of knowing! It’s truly a 50/50 shot; I think we get stuck on thinking that’s not COMPLETELY NORMAL though; not only normal, essential.
We’re not supposed to get it right the first time; how, not only impossible, but boring would that be!?
One of the redirects with my happy thought project was having 36,000 mini happy thoughts printed and cut out of order, attempting to put them in happy little ‘365’ groups; with finding more tears than progress, I ended up having a vulnerable, human conversation with the nice lady at the store and was given the opportunity to dream up the true dream idea, this time with the help I had been seeking.
And look what I made!
I knew I didn’t know where I wanted to go when I started the happy thought journey, I still don’t, but I know there’s a place I need to go and I’ll never find it without taking a step. I told myself “ya just gotta fail a little” and then I landed on my face a few times. I started really seeing that the more you step, the more opportunities there are to bump into new ideas.
I’m relearning and reluctantly becoming pretty good at messing up to get to the good stuff; unfortunately, SO much of the good stuff is directly on the other side of the breakdown. I have a post about that other side I’ll be posting soon. I have no idea where this new journey is going to take me, but so far it has been quite the ride and I know this moment will lead me to my next moment. I mean, where else can it go?
Thanks for joining me on this super weird, challenging, fascinating, chaotic and amazing journey.